31 Jan

Back In The Land Of Smiles

Has it really been three years since we were here last? Memories of finishing our trip, returning home, and settling back into ‘normal’ stumble over one another and get lost as I am gently woken again by a bird whistling outside my window and the hum of the air conditioner.

Wait, where am I again? Birds whistling? Air conditioning? And I’m warm.

We’re here. Back in Thailand, the Land Of Smiles; the place my mind would most often wander back to when left unaccompanied by thoughts of work or other everyday mundane distractions. Life really is much simpler here, although this time it is not a vacation, not a time to completely relax and wile away the time.

We’re here to enact our plan and, with that, comes a certain amount of apprehension, anxiety, and a general sense of being overwhelmed. Did we pull the trigger too soon? Are we crazy even thinking this is a good idea?

It’s been an up and down week; excited to be on our way and back in a place that we love so much, sure that it’s just a matter of time before it all falls into place, and fearful that it won’t work out and that we’ll have to slink back with our tails between our legs.

I’ve said that there can be no failure in this. I have long dreamed of living outside of Canada and know that I would regret it if I never even tried. Even attempting is success in my mind. And so we push forward through the fear, work on resumes and connections, and keep our eye on the prize remembering that Giant Steps are really made of many, many, small ones in the right direction.

We’re also enjoying all that Thailand has to offer.


Wat Arun, Bangkok, Thailand

Great food.

Thai Curry, Bangkok, Thailand

And beach. Although the weather has yet to cooperate on this one!

Hua Hin, Thailand

We’ll head up to Chiang Mai this next week and get looking for an apartment. Wish us luck!


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10 thoughts on “Back In The Land Of Smiles

  1. It’s refreshing to read the perspective of someone just returning to Thailand. I’ve been here for nearly 8 months, and sometimes it’s easy to stop appreciating what a magical country this is. In Chiang Mai, I highly recommend trying El Diablo’s mexican restaurant – it’s my favourite non-Thai food indulgence.

  2. I’ve found, for myself, it can be hard to come back to a place that you love in a different situation because expectations can be hard to manage. Granted the times I’m thinking of for myself were when I was 19 and 21, so for me, I was still very young and inexperienced in a lot of ways and longed for things to be as they were before. I’ve learned a tiny bit, but I still think it can be difficult to not have expectations of a place you’ve once been and loved.

    I think you’ll settle in soon and the path will start revealing itself.

  3. You’ve done it! You’ve made the giant step and, as you said, there is no such thing as failure in this. You’re trying!! Soon those fears will be a distant memory I’m sure. In the meantime, I hope the sun comes out for you. It’s sunny in India, you know, in case you need a little “vacation.”
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  4. I agree with the other posts…you are on your way…I am SOOO proud of you. It will work out….miss you guys!

  5. I’m so glad you guys made this choice, whether it’s a leap or a tiny shuffle, it is a move in the right direction and is you seizing the life you want with both hands and that is what matters most!

    As we reach the 6(!) month mark on our own trip and I face the reality that we will eventually have to go back home, I have been thinking about how I want to do anything but. That I have no idea how to sustain this travel lifestyle we’ve created—albeit temporarily—but that I need to find a way to do just that. It will mean taking risks, and it will mean a lot of uncertainty. I don’t deal with the prospect of failure very well, but I’ve had an important realization: by giving myself permission to fail, I also give myself the opportunity to succeed. As you say, the real failure actually comes in not trying at all!
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  6. Gillian I think you pulled the trigger at the perfect time. So many people never make those choices because they’re waiting for the perfect time, and chances are the perfect time never comes. I always tell myself it’s now or never. If I do it now and fail then at least I know I got in the game and played a few rounds :)

    That being said I can’t wait to see all Thailand has to offer. Have fun.
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  7. Sorry I’m late to the party! Gillian, wow, I am in awe of your bravery, willingness to do what your heart wants. Many of us have difficulty with these steps you’re taking, and I’m sure it’s not a piece of cake for you. The fact is you’re doing it.

    I’m reading this amazing book on living your dharma (your life calling).

    “It’s better to fail at your own dharma than succeed at the dharma of another.” Keep going, lady! No matter what.

    As a reader and writer, I LOVE your Global Book Shelf idea!

    Look forward to reading more. :)
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